Tuesday 23 September 2014

Bugs buggy

This promises to be an eventful week with the first of my radiotherapy sessions on Thursday (25th September) to treat the recently-discovered lesion in my pelvis. I am to have four further 'fractions' over consecutive weekdays. A year ago, I was preparing for the full-hip replacement operation.

T.S. Eliot may have to rewrite, 'The Waistband' ........ 'September is the cruellest month...'

However, I really shouldn't complain about September; the weather has been very good to us this month, especially on our Suffolk coastal holiday from which we have just returned. I am a proud son of Suffolk's neighbour to the north, a county I love to revisit - but have to concede that the coastal strip from the estuary of the Stour almost to the border with Norfolk near Lowestoft is a wonderfully wildlife-friendly part of the country; an east-of-England Serengeti. With North Sea gas, nuclear energy (from the 'Taj Mahal of the marshes', Sizewell B power station), farming and tourism we, the clientele of the Eels Foot Inn at Eastbridge, are currently framing a demand for an East Anglian Independence Referendum. Forget Braveheart; we are looking for a latter-day Boudicca.

Sizewell B Power Station

I wonder if others have the sense that some holidays are followed and perhaps even overshadowed by national, or international, news stories. This has been our Scottish Referendum holiday - and I just couldn't stop watching, with mounting anxiety, the evening news bulletins.

The days, however, were for exploring. Our base was Dunwich Heath, an unusual, subtly-coloured, elevated plateau of heather, gorse and bracken. A whitewashed terrace of coastguard cottages, together with much of the surrounding heath or 'sandlings', are now owned by the National Trust. Staying in one of the well-appointed cottages isn't cheap but they do have the advantage of the ground floor tearooms, shop and other visitor services.

Dunwich Heath is owned by the National Trust.

And so, taking my friend Gerd's words on 'acceptance of my lot' to heart, the morning following our arrival, I put aside my misgivings and sought out the on-site mobility vehicle. In the following days, sometimes accompanied though increasingly 'flying solo', I explored my new world transported by a battery-powered dodgem with a single elbow crutch, replicating the upright connector, slotted into its hold to the rear.

This wasn't the only such vehicle I used. Dunwich Heath lies immediately to the north of RSPB Minsmere which, as lovers of the BBC's Springwatch will know, is a showcase nature reserve teeming with birdlife. It too has mobility buggies as does the NT's collection of historic buildings at Flatford Mill; a location you'd recognise immediately from many of John Constable's paintings, particularly the iconic 'Haywain'.

the haywain by john constable

Apart from the heritage buildings, the pastel-painted houses and landscapes, the big attraction for many visitors is the birdlife. I am not a very good birder. I came late to the hobby (;-). In fact by the time I've spotted a bird, removed my specs, found a safe place for them, lifted my 'bins' (technical jargon), focussed them on a distant and blurred location - I'm invariably late again.

This is why I have always favoured wildflower spotting - at least they stay put.

And yet, my buggy explorations suggested that, rather than a reserve for birds, this part of the world is really the domain of insects and spiders. Dragonflies patrolled the heath like squadrons of helicopter gunships, while the nimbler, trailing-legged, wasps and flies darted about on jet-packs in search of smaller prey. It is a bug-eat-bug world with solitary bees, digger wasps, beetles and the larvae of the ferocious ant-lion all on the prowl.

I once wanted to be an entomologist but my parents were against the idea. They insisted that insects would let me down. I can hear my mother now, 'Horrid, timid creatures. No backbone!'

The wildlife moment-of-the-week, however was the brief encounter with a young, dark adder sinuously and silently crossing my path. Now there's a spine to die for!





Friday 12 September 2014

The Legacy Blog

I'm back - it's been a long time and - 'a lot of  blood plasma has flowed under the epidermis'.

And a lot has happened, in a black and white, art-house-movie-with-subtitles, kind of a way. I'm not sure I can muster the enthusiasm for a summary of events. Perhaps the best option is to allow anything pertinent to this Ingmar Bergman script - to simply emerge unbidden, organically....

However, I will begin by returning to an old theme; coming to terms with stark reality........

It is evident that having made what might be described as a threefold and not inconsiderable contribution to the nation's gene pool, 'Management' has made it abundantly clear that my services are no longer needed. The message, delivered in a series of devastating blows; kidney cancer that had metastasised to the lungs, a degenerative spinal condition and most recently, Parkinson's Disease, might be regarded as just a tad, overdone, overly-emphatic.

Perhaps this kind of triple whammy is reserved for those dim-witted persons, such as myself, who insist on harbouring the delusion that the cut-off point on the gene-pool issue might have been premature? Now, I'm not saying that there are current grounds for this assertion - only that, 'you never know how things might work out'.

What I can say, however, is that, after more than three years in circulation, the message is definitely getting through.

You can understand, I'm sure, my reluctance to accept Nature.com's summary judgement after less than one year inhabiting the sunny uplands of retirement. I did consider taking the case to an 'existential tribunal' on the grounds of 'destructive dismissal' but was told by my legal team that I had little chance of winning - no-one had - not even Ms Anne Frank - in several hundred thousand years.

So, I saved my money and am spending it on my genetic output - which, incidentally, continues to grow. The latest arrival is Millie Ayala (pronounced, 'Aye-yella') Lichtenstein, the third child of my daughter, Claire. Millie is named for my great-aunt, a lovely 'old lady' from my earlier life - and someone who was granted a lengthy 'post-gene pool' extension.

Not that I'm bitter about the inexorable rise of  average life expectancy - someone has to fall on the up-slope of the bell curve.

Well, on reflection, perhaps I am just a little bitter...........

The subject of bitterness brings me to today. I am recently returned from the radiotherapy department of the Queen Elizabeth Hospital Cancer Centre (QEHCC). I had a CT scan in order to furnish the treatment phase with the mapping of the leftside of my pelvis which will enable the five-session zapping of a newly-located tumour/lesion. I will admit that it was a little disconcerting to find, when lying prone on the scan-table, three attractive young women spending some time in first helping me to lower my trousers and underwear before then examining my upper groin at close-quarter scrutiny.

Like I said earlier, you can never tell how things might work out.

P.S. Time for apologies. I am big on apologies.

I apologise for the nearly-eleven month blog-silence, particularly for those who have told me that they have missed it and for those family and friends I don't see/email/text or Facebook regularly; you are the people who have missed the unfolding personal and medical saga over the last year - but for this at least, you may be grateful?

I apologise too for the fact that I cannot be confident of the timing of my next blog. Today I found some energy. Now it is spent and I can't be sure when I will find it again....

P.S.S. (now the following day) I thought of some good, no, great news.

Most of you now know that, in April, I self-published my long-incubated novel for teenagers (aged 13-99 years), entitled, If These Walls Could Whisper. The publishing house from whom I acquired an ISBN number told me that I had to send a copy to the British Library; something I was more than happy to do.

The other day I had a follow-up email informing me that I now needed to send five further copies for distribution to - wait for it - the Bodleian Library in Oxford, Cambridge University Library, National Library of Wales, National Library of Scotland and Trinity College, Dublin.

Wow! My legacy may be more than just a few sequences of DNA......

xx